Undying Love!

It is the end of the year.... finally here,
Everything must end, the year, time, world, people, you, me,
But then why the pain, why the suffering, why the restlessness of being away from you?
If everything must end, then when will my wait come to an end?
When will I finally have you? Will I ever have you?
I may not be your choice, I may not be your love,
But what feelings I now behold within me had been there since the day I saw you,
You alone held the attraction for me stronger than anyone or anything else,
I had been in an undying love with you since our very first meeting,
Even though I never admitted or showed my feelings,
Even though I saw you each day everyday but you had no idea what I carried within me,
None of the people knew about my feelings and with each day passing your
thoughts your memories became my more and more frequent companion,
You used to come up to me, talk to me, laugh with me, share with me your
thoughts and ideas, and accompany me,
And when finally the truth could no longer be hidden, and revealed itself,
and when you knew about my feelings, you changed,
You started staying away from me, ignoring me, neglecting me, without knowing
that this action of yours each and every time killed me from inside,
The physical death may only come once, but the scars your ignorance gave me
were deeper and more painful than any other experience,
In a way, you killed me with your anger, and then revived me with your smile,
And it just used to break me from within that I had to say goodbye to you
each and everyday, not knowing if I’ll see you again the other day,
Not knowing if ill make it to the other day and when finally the other day comes
after a long impatient wait, again your ignorance just reached inside me and tortured my soul,
Then came a long time with no seeing you, and you had no idea what kind of
agony that caused me,
And then suddenly I had to go, move out, away from you, out of the country,
to the exact opposite part of the world,
I didn’t know if I should take the opportunity or refuse it, so I left it up
to the events that took place to make this decision for me,
Eventually I had to stay and couldn’t go back, so I accepted it to be my fate
and believed that whatever happened must have some good in it,
I thought that maybe this would help me take my mind off of you and think
about something else for a change,
I thought that maybe by going away from you physically, I would get away from you mentally too,
I thought that by doing this maybe I would escape the attraction that held me close towards you,
But I now know I was wrong, I under-estimated you and my feelings for you,
I want to come back to you, but I see no good coming from it, but still I would do it,
If only I had the power and authority and the guarantee that you will be mine upon my return,
I would move the Heavens and Earth if I have to, shake the world make it tremble,
defy the laws, deny the restrictions, do whatever is necessary to contact you,
But sadly enough I neither have the power nor the assurance that you would be
mine so we remain as we are, away from each other,
I wish I could get back to you, to tell you what I feel for you, what I always did,
And if I get the chance I would tell you, but that must wait, right now we are where we are, how we are,
All I can do now is hope that our paths cross again,
somehow somewhere in the future,
and that our meeting be in a better environment,
And I also hope that you too be in the same mood as you were before you knew
about my feelings, and maybe just maybe I could then persuade you to
reconsider your thoughts about me,
I realize that’s too much of a hope but then again that’s the only thing that
I have with me now and about which I could surely say is mine . . . unlike you!!!

Poem by: Zeeshan Ramzan
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